beautiful surrender

it always amazes me how God takes so little to teach me so much. He's just that big. i am utterly exhausted, but excited to be in the loving arms of my Daddy. He showed me so much this morning just because i gave what i had to him, and i am so grateful.

i had never thought about how i treated God's talking to me. just like with everyone else, i try to pretend that i already knew what they told me, not wanting to be ignorant. but God wants to teach me, he NEEDS to teach me, and i need to leave the "smarter-than-you" attitude at the door because we all know i am definitely not the smarter one. when i come to God, knowing and honest with my shortcomings and frailties, he is going to fill me up so much more than if i come with a spirit of pride and arrogant (and wrong) superiority.

when we look outside of God to have our needs met, we come up short. the bible says our blanket leaves our feet uncovered. what a beautiful picture! and being cold natured, one i can relate to well. nothing, i repeat NOTHING short of God can satisfy me. why do i even try to look elsewhere? how long will it take until i truly learn this?

i have so much head knowledge, but so little heart knowledge. it's definitely time for a change. i can feel it, i know it's happening, but i want it to be faster and noticable. i'm being patient though, knowing God works all things for his glory in his time.

i can't wait to see what he's doing in me.