following the leader

so here i am again. i know my life is such an intricate "game" of follow the leader- and i feel like i'm losing horribly. how do you lose at follow the leader? God shows me where to go, God leads me on the right path, and two steps behind Him, i get lost. He doesn't speak, He just gently pushes, and i'm confused. He smiles at what i'm learning overall, and i frown, not understanding it all. i pray for vision, for perseverance, for strength to keep going, and yet i feel blind, ready to give up, and weak. but through it all, without a shadow of a doubt, i know God has a plan and a purpose for leading me this way. i know i'm not meant to fully understand, but that doesn't keep my heart from crying out. i feel so burdened for so many things that don't seem to have answers. where do i go from here? i'm learning that one step at a time isn't the way to follow, but instead one moment at a time. that's what i'm trying to build my life on. moment by moment following my risen Lord. Jesus, lead on. i will follow.